I can’t believe it’s been almost a month. Partly because it doesn't seem like that long ago but partly because in some ways I feel more limited and gimpy than I would have expected at this juncture. But truthfully, I've been feeling so much better this week, even working full days all week, that it feels like things are good and hopefully will continue to get better.
Really my biggest limitation at this point is having a drain in. It makes it kind of annoying to dress around because I need to wear a baggy/long enough shirt to cover it, though I could probably try more creative options for concealing it if I was so inclined. I have my next follow-up with the doctor tomorrow morning and I’m hoping it comes out then, but if it’s still draining more than he wants, I have no problem with him taking a more conservative approach and leaving it in a few more days and avoiding a repeat of the last debacle. It’ll just make my weekend wear a bit more challenging! I’m planning to finally go out and socialize and see people and have a few-ish beers this weekend, and I’m doing that drain or no drain.
Anyway, in most other ways life is back to normal. I've worn real work pants to work twice this week as opposed to just wearing leggings forever. I've worn a baggier pair of crops in my current size and I’m currently wearing a pair of regular dress pants in a size up, but both have fit fine over my binder and the pants today have some extra room to give. I imagine without the binder I’d be able to wear my normal stuff just fine, and probably could even with, but I want to be comfortable. I’ve got enough layers on as it is.
My curiosity also finally got the best of me on Sunday afternoon and I decided to weigh myself. I’m glad I did it later in the day, after brunch, so that my expectations would be low and I really had no idea whatsoever what to expect. I was down 7 pounds from the morning of surgery, but who knows if I will end up higher, lower, or right about that when all is said and done. I was hoping/trying to wait 6 weeks before weighing myself so I’ll probably try to get to that point, or close to it, before weighing again because my body is doing so many weird things right now that it seems kind of pointless anyway.
I think my appetite is basically back to normal. I’m still eating more boring meals but mostly because I have been trying to ease back into cooking since I’m a bit more tired at the end of the day, but I’m pretty close to normal. I've also been sleeping well, and haven’t had any breathing/coughing issues since he drained the excess fluid to relieve the swelling. I still feel like I’m several weeks away from any major working out. I’ll probably start by walking on the treadmill or outside in another week or two, but running or lifting seems really difficult to fathom right now, so I’m not going to rush into that until I’m feeling good. All in all, very few complaints! Here are some pictures from Sunday.. a little bit of swelling but not too much, the hunchback is really sexy though. Don’t look if the drains - or incision, or my existence generally - gross you out.
Going into surgery, I thought about the possibility of getting my thighs done sometime next year. Then after the recent complications I was like, fuck this shit, no more elective surgery ever. Now that I seem to be through the worst of it, I'm kind of like, well maaaaybeeeee. And maybe a butt lift. OK fine no that's too much. Is it? I'll revisit in a few.