I was a bit self-conscious - or maybe that's not the word, maybe aware is what I'm looking for? - of the arm scars since I was in strapless or sleeveless dresses all weekend. You can see the bottom half-inch or so of the scar on each side by the elbow when my arms are by my sides, and I realized you can (obviously) see the whole scar pretty well if I put my hands above my head like to put my hair up, or when I'm dancing like a basic bitch. I need to remember to take an updated picture later when I have the wraps off. I generally don't find the scars too bad and they are a necessary evil with this surgery, but I think this weekend was the first time I remembered they're there. The stomach incision, on the other hand, is totally covered by underwear or bathing suits or whatever else.
And speaking of, I DID IT, I wore not one but two bikinis for the first time really ever. I had a couple of cropped tankinis when I was 18 or 19 that had more stomach exposure, and as a kid I had some basic kid-caliber 2-pieces, but still not like, full on.. so I feel like I'm going through some delayed development shit wearing my first real bikini at the age of 31. I also did a shit job of applying sunscreen and missed various bits of my body including my entire chest, so I got a pretty funky burn, but all in all I was just happy to be able to rock my shit at the pool and not really feel self-conscious, at least no more than that usual quick moment of anxiety when you first strip your clothes off and you're not sure if you have a boob hanging out. Anyway, here's a pic because, of course I took pics because I'm a vapid narcissist:
Like that red splotch under my belly button? Apparently that area is crazy sensitive to sun.
I guess from here I'll mostly be winding down the surgery posts as there won't be too many updates, other than maybe just an occasional scar pic to show how they're healing. I'm still doing MFP and even tracked my shit all weekend although it wasn't exactly a pinnacle of nutrition. I'm hoping to eventually resume some other exercise in addition to running in the next few weeks. So, life is pretty much back to normal at this point!